I thought it was a pee pee emergency because he NEVER does that (he sleeps in with his mommy)
Sunday, May 18, 2008
I thought it was a pee pee emergency because he NEVER does that (he sleeps in with his mommy)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
I'm back!

How Second Life Affects Real Life
About a year ago in my first visit to Second Life, the popular online virtual world, I spent half an hour trying to make my avatar, or online character, look like a hotter version of myself — which isn't easy when you don't know how to use the tools. When I finally made it onto Money Island to mingle, a stranger approached me and said, "Hello there, Devon." I froze. Then I tried to run. I was desperately searching for the teleport tool when my sister walked into the room, peered over my shoulder at the computer screen and said, "Why'd you make your avatar ugly?" I logged off.
I didn't realize how instructive my sister's question was until recently, when I discovered research being done at Stanford University's Virtual Human Interaction Lab (VHIL). Jeremy Bailenson, head of the lab and an assistant professor of communication at Stanford, studies the way self-perception affects behavior. No surprise that what we think about ourselves affects the confidence with which we approach the world. What is a surprise is that this applies in the virtual world too. With my plain Jane avatar and my inexperience in Second Life, I did what most people would want to do in an uncomfortable social situation: run away.
What's more, Bailenson's research suggests that the qualities you acquire online — whether it's confidence or insecurity — can spill over and change your conduct in the real world, often without your awareness. Bailenson has found that even 90 seconds spent chatting it up with avatars is enough to elicit behavioral changes offline — at least in the short-term. "When we cloak ourselves in avatars, it subtly alters the manner in which we behave," says Bailenson. "It's about self-perception and self-confidence." But researchers are still trying to figure out the psychological mechanisms at work, and which way the effect flows: "Do you consciously wear your power suit to feel confident, or is it that you're in this suit and you're feeling up, but you're unaware of the reason?" says Bailenson.
Bailenson's findings have a lot more real-world meaning than you'd think, if only because so many people are spending a so much time in the unreal world. Some 13 million people have visited Second Life at least once, with about 450,000 residents online in a given week. Even more popular is the online game World of Warcraft, which has 10 million active subscribers who pay to participate. People spend on average about 20 hours a week in alternate worlds like these, and at VHIL, whose high-tech virtual world is entered by way of a $24,000 helmet, Bailenson and his Ph.D. students are trying to figure out how these increasingly common virtual experiences bleed into reality. "I've been doing this for years and people have been laughing at me," says Bailenson. "All of a sudden, I have people calling and asking about what I do."
In one experiment, published in Human Communication Research last year, researchers assessed how an avatar's attractiveness affected human behavior, both online and off. Thirty-two volunteers were randomly assigned an attractive or unattractive avatar (attractiveness was rated by undergrads in a survey beforehand) and instructed to look at them in a virtual mirror for 90 seconds. Then they were asked to interact with other avatars, controlled by the experimenters, in a classroom-like setting. Overall, subjects using good-looking avatars tended to display more confidence, friendliness and extraversion, just as in the real world: they approached avatar strangers within three feet, and in conversations tended to disclose more personal details. Ugly duckling avatars, meanwhile, stayed five and a half feet away from strangers and were more tight-lipped.
Lead researcher Nick Yee, a former Stanford graduate student who now works for the nearby Palo Alto Research Center, replicated his study, then appended a second part: an hour after their forays online, the same volunteers were told they were participating in an unrelated study about online romance. They were instructed to pick two potential dates out of nine photos in an online-dating pool. People who had used attractive avatars seemed to hang onto some of the self-assurance that came from being handsome, choosing better-looking dates than those who had homely avatars. "They thought they had a shot," says Bailenson.
If feeling pretty builds confidence, what does height do for you? To find out, Yee recruited 50 volunteers, randomly assigned them to short or tall avatars, then instructed them to divide a virtual pool of $100 with another participant — one player would suggest how to split the pot, and the other could accept or reject the offer, with each person getting nothing if offers were rejected. People with tall avatars (three or four inches taller than the stranger avatar) negotiated more aggressively than the short ones, while short avatars were twice as likely as the tall ones to accept an unfair split — $25 versus $75.
Again, the behavior held up in real life. When Yee had the subjects shed their avatars and negotiate face-to-face, sitting down, people who had inhabited tall avatars bargained more aggressively, suggesting unfair splits more often. And participants who had had short avatars accepted less-than-even money more often than the tall ones. How tall the people were themselves became less important, if only temporarily, than the height of their online alter-egos.
Virtual behavior may even affect real-world health. Stanford graduate student Jesse Fox randomly assigned avatars to 75 volunteers and divided them into three groups: one group watched their look-alike avatars run on treadmills for about five and a half minutes; another group saw their virtual counterparts lounge around; and a third watched avatars who did not look like them, but were of the same age and sex, run on treadmills. A day later, Fox found that participants who watched avatars of their own likeness exercising had themselves exercised an hour more in the intervening 24-hour period than people in the other two groups. (It's worth noting that the volunteers were all Stanford undergraduates, who were likely more active and fitter to start than the average adult.) "What I'm hoping to find out by picking apart these mechanisms is what motivates people and why this works," says Fox. "If you are energized by seeing yourself run, maybe you can put an avatar on the bottom of your computer screen for five minutes and it would persuade you to go to the gym."
The possibilities are — virtually — endless. Inhabit buffed-up versions of yourself to lose weight, cuter versions of yourself to gain confidence, or older versions to start putting money away for the future (that last one is being studied at Stanford now). "The most stunning part is how subtle the manipulations are and how difficult they are to detect," says Bailenson, "but how much it affects real life later on."
Of course, the effect could potentially work both ways — for good or for bad. "In a therapy setting, we could use these virtual environments to get people to become more confident," says Yee. "But they can also be used in advertising and as propaganda."
Before I entered Second Life again I upgraded my avatar to much cuter dimensions. This time I found myself conversing with people instead of logging off. I was more outgoing. Next, I'm considering giving my avatar a cottage by the sea and a job doing charitable work. Maybe some of the positive vibes will rub off into my real life. I'll let you know how it works out.
I forgot how to link you Os, but I am sure it will all come back to me, blogging is like riding a bike right?
YAAAAAAAAY!
I missed you effers.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
"Robin,
I know there is nothing I can say to make you believe any differently, but take it from me, I have known you for a very long time...we have been friends....and at times I wished we could be more than just friends. You are a very beautiful person to me...and always have been....your luck will change...keep smiling and don't give up. If you ever want to talk or go for a drink you know where to find me. I am here for you Robin."
I am thinking of whining a lot more now.
He's married to an awesome chick, and they have two beautiful daughters, so if you were thinking I should date him that's not going to happen.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
I drove it home today without turning the headlights on (which have not been working and are obviously the reason for the electrical fire and explosion) and I made it home.
Something else to pay for...it never ends does it?
Thursday, August 30, 2007
| You May Be a Bit Schizotypal... |
A bit odd and socially isolated. You couldn't care less what others think. And some of your beliefs are a little weird. Like that time you thought you were Jesus. |
So of course I looked up schizotypal and found this:
"characterized by a need for social isolation, odd behaviour and thinking, and often unconventional beliefs such as being convinced of having extra sensory abilities."
Okay A) I DO have E.S.P. and B) it's called "staying away from people who annoy me" not "social isolation". GAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWD.
What Personality Disorder Are You?
Screaming "candy" in a park at a bunch of kids gets you weird looks I realized in my dream. Then I went to someone's house (that I didn't know) to wait for word on Charlie (Candy). The woman (that I didn't know) asked me to move because she had to change so I moved out of her way and then she says "NO you are standing in front of my leg". So I look and see that she has a fake leg. She removes that fake leg and puts on her other fake leg that matches what she is wearing. And that's all I remember.
Aren't you glad I shared that with you?
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
More getting id'd.
More YouTubing.
More Big Brother obsessing and chatting on the live feeds with my new friends who are just as addicted.
More of my mother telling me to put vinegar on my faucets.
Yeah now you are all caught up with me...
How's it with you?
Thursday, August 23, 2007

I'm back.
I went MIA for a while because I started a new job and I got the Big Brother live feeds.
I miss all of you though, so I thought I would come back. I mean how long does it take to post a picture of my dog, say a bunch of nothing and visit 50 blogs?
Well that last part can take some time but I will get there.

So you are going through somebody's photos on Facebook right?
Looking at their family and friends and all of their happy happy joy joy times.
And you think to yourself, that guy needs to invest in some Crest white strips, or that girl should really rethink that outfit, or that person should maybe not suck lemons immediately before a photo op.
But do you say that?
Of course you don't you pussies.
Oh yeah, neither do I.
Monday, August 06, 2007
Then I got i.d.'d
She looked at my i.d. and said "Wow, you've still got it."
That's right, the lady in the liquor thinks I still got it.
Or was she saying I am old?
Thursday, July 19, 2007
"AT THE END OF THE DAY 'blah blah blah'."
If you** say "AT THE END OF THE DAY" before a sentence you** probably think it makes you** sound so thoughtful and contemplative.
Well...
At the end of the day you** are still an idiot for using such a stupid expression.
At the end of the day some people are trying not to think about the day they just had because it SUCKED, so way to go reminding them about it.
At the end of the day if I hear one more cliche I am going to go postal on someone's ass fo shizzle.
**this is not "you", it's THE OTHERS.
Monday, July 16, 2007
(Yeah I had a few beers before I sent this gem out - but I really did have a huge crush on him)
Bob: "No way. What on earth did you have a crush on? Was it my sense of fashion or the bloodshot eyes? Come on...you're pullin' my leg. Where are you now and forgive me...the name is ringing bells but the animated picture is not really pulling it all together."
Me: "Ha ha! Yes way! I was friends with Lindsay (that's where I saw your name) and you lived on her street or nearby right? You were older and you talked to us, and you had puppy dog eyes. I'm in Toronto. (that's an internet lie folks, I told him where I actually am) Where are you?"
Bob: "I still don't believe you...well maybe sorta. The animation is a little daunting - guess I'm one to talk.
Facebook continues to be a really weird place."
Me: "I know totally."
(Can you believe I said "I KNOW TOTALLY" like some kind of valley girl? It's the Big Brother live feeds rubbing off on me I tell you, they say 'like' every 4 seconds. At least I didn't do that)
Me cont'd: "I remember you in your 'Barrie dinner jackets' and Kodiaks. Or that's what my memory is telling me."
(Yes this is how old I am, boys wore Kodiaks to school in my day. Also you can change Barrie for any hickish town nearby where you live)
Bob: "Dinner jackets - yes I did have a dinner jacket phase for a while didn't I, yup...I did. Had forgotten about those. Nice.
Alright then yes, you knew me and you are not just making it up."
Gotta love Facebook
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
____________________
My parents have a Kildeer family in their front yard, I forgot to take pictures, but anyway if you get too close to the babies (that are now running around on the ground) the mother Kildeer runs AWAY from them making all sorts of noise and then puts her wing up like it's broken to entice you over to her and away from the babies because you are supposed to think she is injured, is this a run on sentence? Anyway I will get some video and pictures next time I am there. I bet you can't wait!
____________________
Have you ever seen somebody and you don't really know if you even know them but you hate them? Like maybe they were rude to you once and it wasn't so bad so you forgot kinda but when you see them you think I hate you and I have no idea why? Yeah I do too.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Your selfish behaviour has been noted.
You suck beyond sucking.
I wouldn't walk across the street to help you out.
Actually that's a lie.
I would.
Still.
And it makes me mad at myself.
But have no fear, I will get tougher.
And you will have one less person you can rely on when you really need it.
Like Justin Timberlake says "What goes around comes back around".
Yeah I know he didn't say it first, but he says it the cutest.
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I know it's been said a million times but people that say "to be perfectly honest" or "in all honesty" are obviously liars. I mean I don't have to warn people every time I am going to say something honest because it usually is. Or bitchy. Same deal. Actually I keep my bitchy hidden in real life and asplode it into my blog for therapy. Mostly.
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I am going to meet my first friend from YouTube today. It should be quite excellent. If you had told me a few years ago that I would be meeting people from the internet I wouldn't have believed it.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
A 17 year old saying "Have a good one Miss!" at the store.
This is what makes old people happy.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
It is all American spelling.
I had NO idea how many words we spell differently until I got this little feature.
It will always be favour and humour and licence and zed.
Got it yanks?
Yeah yanks doesn't get underlined, that's a REAL word.
Oh wait, it is, like she yanks their chains.
Oh and while we are at it, Thanksgiving is in October.

Alright it's Big Brother tonight people!
And nothing says "I stay in my basement and don't have sex in the summer for a whole 3 months" like Big Brother.
Yeah, I'm working on it.
A woman asked to use my cell phone today while we were standing in a MALL. I don't know, maybe it's just me but that's weird. And it's not like I even had my cell phone out, she just asked if I had a phone so she could call her husband, no emergency, just wanted to call her husband.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
I did this thing on CNN dot com where they show you 4 videos of people in complete darkness walking and the only thing you can see is some lights that are attached all the way up their bodies. You have to figure out if it's a man or woman and if they are gay or straight. The researchers believe we can tell just by the way someone carries themselves.
I got FOUR OUT OF FOUR RIGHT.
You should try it, it's under health on the CNN website.
Researchers say this is further proof that gay is a gene, not a choice.
I got your proof right here researchers.
Do you think I would actually choose to like males if I sat down and really thought about it?
Uh no.
Kidding.
Sort of.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Yeah me.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
ONLY if you have a dog.
Give your dog a bath.
After their bath towel dry.
Let them run around in your house for a bit.
They will do this anyway.
Just wait until they stop.
Then smell them.
Do they smell like Swiss Chalet to you?
That is it for me and quarter chicken dinners.
I didn't send you anything so the email you are sending me FIRST is not re:
It is just a SUBJECT.
You create the subject and if I email back it is then RE: YOUR SUBJECT.
Monday, June 18, 2007
You know those chicks that say "Girls/women just don't like me" ?
Yeah well it's not because you are hot (which I am SURE is what you think) it's because you are a bitch, so try getting over yourself and make some female friends.
Reasons to drink:
Those fucking imbeciles that brake 3 minutes before they signal. What is the point in signaling AFTER you have already come to a complete stop???? Maybe "Mr. I'm 114" doesn't drive.
Dealing with insurance companies. Do you guys just laugh and laugh to yourselves when you're mailing a claim back to somebody for the fifth time because you need more information? Do you have contests to see how many times you can send it back with NO MONEY before somebody shows up at your office with a bat? Do you not have phones? Cause I do and you could call me if you need to know something.
Celebrations, get togethers, money pooling for gifts for people who have NEVER and will NEVER celebrate me. Fuck yourself.
These new television shows where people are just NASTY and RUDE to the contestants or participants. When the hell did we decide that it was entertaining to watch some jerk ridicule people to the point of making them cry?
NOT FUNNY. STOP IT.
And on that subject how come every panel of "experts" is a 1 female to 2 male ratio?
Experts. Pffffffft.
Friday, June 15, 2007

Nice package on a licence* plate
equals
Guy** who is too lame to find somebody to check it out.
Raymi we should start a tooliest licence plates contest.
And if you click on the pic you can see where this tool hails from, or at least where he buys his cars.
*yes that's how we spell it here in Canada
**yes I saw him
Sunday, June 03, 2007


They ended up in the same section as the Prime Minister of Canada.
Not a bad Saturday night.
He's gonna kill me for posting his picture on the internet again.
GO SENS GO!!!!!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Don't buy a $300.00 washing machine.
Don't eat nachos with cheese in your car.
Don't assume that the asshole who has his indicator on is actually going to turn.
Especially when you have cheese sauce with the lid off in your car.
And in other news...
I went to buy some food. I saw a rather unhappy looking guy. I walked past him. He turned around and said "SEE YA WHORE, SLUT, BITCH." I thought how weird. Then I saw a girl that worked there and she looked VERY uncomfortable. So I realized I was not who he was referring to as the whore, slut, bitch. Then I saw him PUNCH this guy behind the deli counter. Then I saw him throw something at the deli boy. Then a REALLY HUGE guy (like 6'5") that must have worked there came up and told the psycho to leave. Then the girl that looked uncomfortable started crying. Then I did my shopping. Then when I was leaving there were two cop cars and an ambulance outside. My jeebus.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
One Intellectual Individual
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100%
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New Age Hippie
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63%
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Original Hippie
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63%
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Earth-Child
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50%
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Not a Hippie
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25%
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Pothead
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13%
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Friday, May 18, 2007
Nice way to start the day I'd say.
I guess it's all in how you look at it and how desperate you are for affection.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
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That's right bitches I won. Don't bother contacting me anymore.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Ha speaking of kids...I was walking in to a store yesterday, okay the liquor store, why must you always judge me? Anyway, this dude and his son were coming from the other direction and we all made it to the door at the same time. The kid walked in, then the dad and I looked at eachother and he said "After you." like the sweet gentlemanly type men that live in this area of the country always do (do they do it where you live? - It's AWESOME huh?) Anyway, I say "thank you", smile and walk in. The kid who was ahead of me hangs back at this point to wait for his dad, and as I walk away in a voice that was soft enough that he wasn't trying to let me hear the dad says to his son "Where was the little gentleman?" Isn't that precious? They are raising a whole new generation of these dudes.
Moral: Life isn't all bad, except for the loud noises..
Thursday, May 03, 2007
I talked to a couple of OLD friends tonight. We are going to get together. Yay.
Sometimes you don't answer the phone, that makes me sad. I hope when you need to talk somebody answers. Actually, my hurt makes me want you to feel the same thing I do, so I hope nobody is there to talk to you when you are lonely or scared, then you will know what it feels like.
Sad that I think that.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Oh and then last night I woke up and I was NOT breathing...I jumped up and started running around the room gasping for air like a goldfish out of water. Or I guess any kind of fish out of water. It was INSANE. I couldn't turn the lights out again afterwards because I was worried I would fall asleep and it would happen again. I think because the doctor told me to sleep with two pillows I inhaled spit while sleeping, you know when something goes down the wrong way? Yeah I think that happened while I was sleeping and then I woke up right at the gasping for air moment. SO freaky.
So anyway I fell back asleep eventually with the lights on like a little baby. Got up in the morning, all was well, or so I thought. Went to Tim Horton's to get a coffee before going to work and there were customers at both cashes so I waited in line. When one of the customers had finished and proceeded on with their coffee the cashier did not look at me or say "next", so for a 30 second period before the other cashier looked at me and said "What can I get you?" I thought I was actually dead from the not breathing incident.
I am SO not joking.
Also I spilled bleach all over my pants and my kitchen mat.
Dear Universe,
I think I am due for some good loving and boating karma now.
And now for your viewing pleasure (okay mostly mine) stolen from Momtheminx:
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Robin Alexa of A.K.A. Binsk - She's so easy going, and so artistic, you can't help but get caught up in whatever she's doing. She can throw on a pink wig and sing to a CD while videotaping it and you'll find yourself watching it over and over. She's the best friend you wish you could get back in touch with, the girl you tried to date but never had the nerve to ask out, the neighbor you had a crush on, and the quiet girl you had a class with who went on to appear in Playboy and shock everyone. Her writing is just whatever is on her mind, and if it only needs one sentence to say, then one sentence is all you'll get. Other times it's a paragraph about life or a book she loves or her dog. Whatever she has to say, every word is hypnotic. And did I mention how beautiful she is? Wow!
How cute is that? If he was single and Canadian, I'd do him. :)
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
And B, the media asking whether South Koreans are concerned about a backlash from what a mentally ill person did is like asking redheads if they are worried about the way the Chuckie doll made them look. FUCK OFF.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Gimme an - A
Gimme an - R
Gimme an - R
Gimme a - Y
Monday, April 09, 2007
Vimy Ridge 90th anniversary
That quote makes me want to cry and do karate kicks all at once.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
"There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening, that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost." Martha Graham