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Monday, March 25, 2013
Game of Thrones
"When you were born I was the one who pulled you from your mother. I placed you in her arms. From that moment until the moment she dies she will love you absolutely. Fiercely."
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Funny story from work tonight
My friend at work has a problem with his voice which has been diagnosed as stress related.
He asks me to tell the specials of the night to his tables because sometimes people have trouble understanding him completely.
So, I went up to one of his tables tonight and I said "I am going to let you know what the specials are because Dave has a funny voice". I didn't mean to say it like that, but that's how it came out.
So the guy at the table immediately and hilariously said to me "Is he your ex boyfriend or something?" ha ha
And then I laughed but I got a little flustered because I was not in any way trying to make an issue of Dave's voice problem.
Anyway, hilarious customer continued with "Are there any other weird things we should know about Dave?"
Omg too funny.
I went back to Dave after all of this happened and told him what I said so he approached the table and said in his very strained voice "Hi I'm Dave the strange guy with the strange voice" and the couple laughed because they were fun people with a great sense of humour.
I went back to the table later in the night to clear some plates because Dave was busy with another table and the customer said to me "I don't know why you broke up with Dave, he's a really nice guy!"
I wish all of the people I met were so hilarious. :)
He asks me to tell the specials of the night to his tables because sometimes people have trouble understanding him completely.
So, I went up to one of his tables tonight and I said "I am going to let you know what the specials are because Dave has a funny voice". I didn't mean to say it like that, but that's how it came out.
So the guy at the table immediately and hilariously said to me "Is he your ex boyfriend or something?" ha ha
And then I laughed but I got a little flustered because I was not in any way trying to make an issue of Dave's voice problem.
Anyway, hilarious customer continued with "Are there any other weird things we should know about Dave?"
Omg too funny.
I went back to Dave after all of this happened and told him what I said so he approached the table and said in his very strained voice "Hi I'm Dave the strange guy with the strange voice" and the couple laughed because they were fun people with a great sense of humour.
I went back to the table later in the night to clear some plates because Dave was busy with another table and the customer said to me "I don't know why you broke up with Dave, he's a really nice guy!"
I wish all of the people I met were so hilarious. :)
Monday, January 07, 2013
Snake
My dad found a snake on the counter in my parent's house yesterday. In January. In Ontario.
He said "Do you think it's your mom sending us a sign?" as I was on the other end of the phone googling snake meaning. I said "I'm searching that right now."
And I found this:
"As snakes shed their skin through sloughing, they are symbols of rebirth, transformation, immortality, and healing. The ouroboros is a symbol of eternity and continual renewal of life."
and this:
He said "Do you think it's your mom sending us a sign?" as I was on the other end of the phone googling snake meaning. I said "I'm searching that right now."
And I found this:
"As snakes shed their skin through sloughing, they are symbols of rebirth, transformation, immortality, and healing. The ouroboros is a symbol of eternity and continual renewal of life."
and this:
"In many parts of Africa the snake is looked upon as the incarnation of deceased relatives."
My mother just keeps telling us she's around and I love it.
Thursday, January 03, 2013
Friday, December 21, 2012
My friend gave me a rose quartz pendant
Rose Quartz Meaning ... A Powerful Love Stone
Rose Quartz is a pink quartz crystal whose meaning is about love...as it is a stone that epitomizes the vibration of love. This may be why this stone is symbolic of the energy of love, peace and calming energy. One of the facts about Rose Quartz Crystal that is very important is its effectiveness at healing personal relationships.This pink quartz crystal has a powerful effect to aid your emotional healing, and helps heal relationship problems.It is beneficial worn on your body as the soft sweet energy of this crystal will resonate out into your whole aura, allowing you to see the beauty in the world... as your heart resonates to a new tune.
The presence of this lovely pink love stone will send a soothing vibration not only to the person wearing it, but also resonates throughout the room where it is located.
It will bestow a peaceful and calming sensation that can assist in healing of the heart... by dissolving anger and resentment. Rose Quartz is also a stone whose powerful love will resonate to the whole body and heal all chakras.
The energy of the love it resonates is all encompassing ... love for yourself, your partner, your children, your community and the whole world! Love of your country and your fellow human beings is encompassed within this stones influence. Rose Quartz Crystal resonates Goddess Energy and is one of the foremost stones representing the Feminine Principle.
Rose Quartz Healing Effect
Quartz crystal healing using Rose quartz will heal you on both a physical and emotional level. This lovely stone will resonate out the love energy into its surroundings... as all quartz crystals are profound amplifiers of energy. Not only will it assist you with healing yourself but its energy may bring faith and hope to all in the vicinity.The presence of Rose Quartz
will send a soothing vibration throughout the room where it is located.Using this crystal will enable you to heal old negative emotions such as anger, resentment, fear and jealousy that may result from past experiences.
As you are freed from these feelings, you may find that you feel less restrained... and that you can unlock your imagination and discover how to be happy.
I am so lucky to have such wonderful, kind friends.
"What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday... and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow. Our life is the creation of our mind." The Buddha.
Friday, November 09, 2012
I love this Polish proverb because it's true
"The greatest love is a mother's; then a dog's; then a sweetheart's."
Thursday, November 08, 2012
Shooting stars and meteors
I saw a shooting star on August 31st and two Octobers ago.
And probably other times but those are the most significant ones to me.
And I saw a meteor tonight.
It was a huge ball of white arcing fire shooting through the sky in my town.
I found this interesting:
"Our best estimates of the total incoming meteoroid flux indicate that about 10 to 50 meteorite dropping events occur over the earth each day. It should be remembered, however, that 2/3 of these events will occur over ocean, while another 1/4 or so will occur over very uninhabited land areas, leaving only about 2 to 12 events each day with the potential for discovery by people. Half of these again occur on the night side of the earth, with even less chance of being noticed. Due to the combination of all of these factors, only a handful of witnessed meteorite falls occur each year."
I ran back in to my work to tell them about the fireball I saw and they said "You saw a meteor? Maybe your luck is going to change!" Fingers crossed.
And probably other times but those are the most significant ones to me.
And I saw a meteor tonight.
It was a huge ball of white arcing fire shooting through the sky in my town.
I found this interesting:
"Our best estimates of the total incoming meteoroid flux indicate that about 10 to 50 meteorite dropping events occur over the earth each day. It should be remembered, however, that 2/3 of these events will occur over ocean, while another 1/4 or so will occur over very uninhabited land areas, leaving only about 2 to 12 events each day with the potential for discovery by people. Half of these again occur on the night side of the earth, with even less chance of being noticed. Due to the combination of all of these factors, only a handful of witnessed meteorite falls occur each year."
I ran back in to my work to tell them about the fireball I saw and they said "You saw a meteor? Maybe your luck is going to change!" Fingers crossed.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Are you fucking kidding me???
Dear imbecilic researchers,
Fuck you and your research. You are talking shit. Spend a few months in my body and then tell me that it's imagined or a reaction to society's views on female cycles you fucking jerks.
Fuck you and your research. You are talking shit. Spend a few months in my body and then tell me that it's imagined or a reaction to society's views on female cycles you fucking jerks.
"PMS doesn’t exist. Period.
Don’t blame premenstrual syndrome for feeling depressed, stressed and irritable. Turns out it may be a myth, according to a recently published paper in the journal Gender Medicine by a University of Toronto-led research team.
The researchers don’t dispute physical symptoms linked to menstruation, such as bloating or abdominal pain. But after reviewing 47 studies they found no clear evidence to support the idea that a woman’s menstrual cycle puts her in a negative mood in the days before her periods.
“This puzzlingly widespread belief needs challenging,” concluded the authors of Mood and the Menstrual Cycle: A Review of Prospective Data Studies.
Gillian Einstein, one of the report’s authors, told the Star, “We have a menstrual cycle and we have moods, but they don’t necessarily correlate.”
So why do women attribute feeling down to their menstrual cycles?
For one thing, PMS is a social construct, rooted in negative feelings many cultures have toward menstruation, a natural female function, said Einstein, a neuroscientist and director of the Collaborative Graduate Program in Women’s Health at the university.
Another possibility, she suggested, is that “this is the time of the month when women are given permission to not be sweet, docile and cheerful — expected attributes of women.
“It may be the time of the month when (women) feel they can say what’s on their minds.”
Or as comic Roseanne Barr once put it, “Women complain about PMS, but I think of it as the only time of the month when I can be myself.”
PMS has long been the butt of jokes, with some referring to it as Pissy Mood Syndrome and Pardon My Sobbing. But turns out there may not even be anything to joke about.
For their review, the U of T researchers combed through studies dating back to 1806. They found 646 that dealt with mood and the menstrual cycle — but only focused on 47 that met vigorous scientific criteria.
Of those, 18 showed no evidence of negative mood at any time of the month; another 18 found women were moody before and during their period; seven found classic PMS symptoms and in four studies women were actually crankier when they weren’t premenstrual.
A problem with much of the data was that women knew the real purpose of those studies, which may have influenced their responses.
“What’s interesting about this review is that this is the information that the medical community, psychiatric community and people who are treating women who come in complaining of PMS — this is the literature they rely on,” said Einstein. “And, it’s not that great. Most of it doesn’t meet strong standards of evidence.”
To fill the need for more rigorous research, the team of researchers did their own studies. They found no relationship between women’s hormone levels and their moods, either positive or negative.
Negative mood was much more strongly linked with poor health and high stress levels.
Sure, women are sometimes cranky, snarky, even weepy. But that’s more likely related to their circumstances.
If women are really stressed out, or struggling with a bad life situation, they’re doing themselves a disservice by chalking up their negative mood to PMS, because then they won’t get the help they need, said Einstein.
“There are lots of things in the social sphere that affect women that are not completely tied to the biology of being a woman,” she said. “Don’t underestimate the power of life’s circumstances to affect how you’re feeling.”
Don’t blame premenstrual syndrome for feeling depressed, stressed and irritable. Turns out it may be a myth, according to a recently published paper in the journal Gender Medicine by a University of Toronto-led research team.
The researchers don’t dispute physical symptoms linked to menstruation, such as bloating or abdominal pain. But after reviewing 47 studies they found no clear evidence to support the idea that a woman’s menstrual cycle puts her in a negative mood in the days before her periods.
“This puzzlingly widespread belief needs challenging,” concluded the authors of Mood and the Menstrual Cycle: A Review of Prospective Data Studies.
Gillian Einstein, one of the report’s authors, told the Star, “We have a menstrual cycle and we have moods, but they don’t necessarily correlate.”
So why do women attribute feeling down to their menstrual cycles?
For one thing, PMS is a social construct, rooted in negative feelings many cultures have toward menstruation, a natural female function, said Einstein, a neuroscientist and director of the Collaborative Graduate Program in Women’s Health at the university.
Another possibility, she suggested, is that “this is the time of the month when women are given permission to not be sweet, docile and cheerful — expected attributes of women.
“It may be the time of the month when (women) feel they can say what’s on their minds.”
Or as comic Roseanne Barr once put it, “Women complain about PMS, but I think of it as the only time of the month when I can be myself.”
PMS has long been the butt of jokes, with some referring to it as Pissy Mood Syndrome and Pardon My Sobbing. But turns out there may not even be anything to joke about.
For their review, the U of T researchers combed through studies dating back to 1806. They found 646 that dealt with mood and the menstrual cycle — but only focused on 47 that met vigorous scientific criteria.
Of those, 18 showed no evidence of negative mood at any time of the month; another 18 found women were moody before and during their period; seven found classic PMS symptoms and in four studies women were actually crankier when they weren’t premenstrual.
A problem with much of the data was that women knew the real purpose of those studies, which may have influenced their responses.
“What’s interesting about this review is that this is the information that the medical community, psychiatric community and people who are treating women who come in complaining of PMS — this is the literature they rely on,” said Einstein. “And, it’s not that great. Most of it doesn’t meet strong standards of evidence.”
To fill the need for more rigorous research, the team of researchers did their own studies. They found no relationship between women’s hormone levels and their moods, either positive or negative.
Negative mood was much more strongly linked with poor health and high stress levels.
Sure, women are sometimes cranky, snarky, even weepy. But that’s more likely related to their circumstances.
If women are really stressed out, or struggling with a bad life situation, they’re doing themselves a disservice by chalking up their negative mood to PMS, because then they won’t get the help they need, said Einstein.
“There are lots of things in the social sphere that affect women that are not completely tied to the biology of being a woman,” she said. “Don’t underestimate the power of life’s circumstances to affect how you’re feeling.”
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Regrets
I found this in an article...
A word about regrets. Never, ever allow regrets to dominate your thoughts. Don’t let them rent a room in your mind’s chambers and NEVER let them move in! Think about it this way – what if it had been YOU who’d passed away? Would this loved one have things he or she would regret? Of course! We’re all human, capable of human frailties and faults. But, would you want them to be haunted by regrets or guilt? Of course not. You’d want to tell them, “Forget about that. I never gave it a second thought – I know you loved me. Only remember the good times. I don’t want to be remembered with tears or pain – I want to be remembered positively with laughter and smiles.”
A word about regrets. Never, ever allow regrets to dominate your thoughts. Don’t let them rent a room in your mind’s chambers and NEVER let them move in! Think about it this way – what if it had been YOU who’d passed away? Would this loved one have things he or she would regret? Of course! We’re all human, capable of human frailties and faults. But, would you want them to be haunted by regrets or guilt? Of course not. You’d want to tell them, “Forget about that. I never gave it a second thought – I know you loved me. Only remember the good times. I don’t want to be remembered with tears or pain – I want to be remembered positively with laughter and smiles.”
As Washington Irving said "A mother is the truest friend we have,
when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the
place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine
desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us,
and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds
of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts." It is indeed a
great loss to lose your mother...
A Mother's Love
A Mother's love is something
that no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendored miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God's tender guiding hand.
that no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendored miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God's tender guiding hand.
Friday, October 12, 2012
My dream last night
My mom sent me a single pale pink rose in my dream last night.
"Generally speaking, a single rose can deliver the message of 'I love you'."
"In the field of dream analysis, analysts believe that dreams featuring pale or light pink roses indicate immense feelings of love or femininity as a primary focus."
"Pink roses are used to convey gentle emotions such as admiration, joy and gratitude. Light pink rose blooms are indicative of sweetness and innocence."
"These are a sweet, innocent pink. Romance is not symbolized. The pretty pink rose buds could be given to a very young girl. The open pink rose flower, to a woman whose virtues you admire. She could be your eldest daughter."
"Generally speaking, a single rose can deliver the message of 'I love you'."
"In the field of dream analysis, analysts believe that dreams featuring pale or light pink roses indicate immense feelings of love or femininity as a primary focus."
"Pink roses are used to convey gentle emotions such as admiration, joy and gratitude. Light pink rose blooms are indicative of sweetness and innocence."
"These are a sweet, innocent pink. Romance is not symbolized. The pretty pink rose buds could be given to a very young girl. The open pink rose flower, to a woman whose virtues you admire. She could be your eldest daughter."
The worst thing that could ever happen has happened
And then I got this email from a positive thinking website that I subscribed to that tells me:
"There's nothing unpleasant, unkind, or unjust that has ever happened within all of time and space, Robin, that I won't eventually undo, reverse, and make right, one billion times over.
Guaranteed."
I'm just wondering when the unpleasant, unkind, and unjust is going to be reversed because right now nothing feels like it will ever feel even the slightest bit better, ever, let alone a billion times better.
"There's nothing unpleasant, unkind, or unjust that has ever happened within all of time and space, Robin, that I won't eventually undo, reverse, and make right, one billion times over.
Guaranteed."
I'm just wondering when the unpleasant, unkind, and unjust is going to be reversed because right now nothing feels like it will ever feel even the slightest bit better, ever, let alone a billion times better.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Facebook coversation with a high school boyfriend
HSBF: Do you like Sabbath or anything like that ?
Me: I love Black Sabbath.
HSBF: Why are you up so late young lady?
Me: I wore a Randy Rhodes tshirt at Elgin don't you remember? ha ha
Me: Rhoads.
Me: Oh wait, he wasn't Black Sabbath he was just with Ozzy, whatevs. :)
Me: I am always up late.
Me: Rhoads.
Me: Oh wait, he wasn't Black Sabbath he was just with Ozzy, whatevs. :)
Me: I am always up late.
HSBF: you cannot "whatevs. " Randy Rhoades !!!! lol
HSBF: Yeah , I remember lol some how. I mostly remember your skirt and stalking look. And your amazing regard for music.
Me: Whatevs.
Me: Awwwww really how cool. I remember going to your house after school and making out on your couch. lol.
Me: I also had bleached skin tight jeans with holes.
HSBF: I'm pretty sure it was my parents couch ... I didn't have a couch until 1994 lol.
Me: Wait????? Stalking look??????????? What?
HSBF: Did I spell 'stalking' wrong ? lmao !
HSBF: Tights ? leotards ? Whatever the fuck it was , you looked great !
Me: lol ya, stockings are tights, stalking is being a predator. haaaaaaaaa
Me: And thank you kind sir. ;)
Me: And thank you kind sir. ;)
HSBF: LOL , no problem , you cornered the market , everyone else was wearing track pants or something.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
My boss tells me that the chef at my work was in the men's change room, and he moved his jacket and this kid I work with's jacket fell down and out came TWO bags of cocaine. I have NO idea how to make that first sentence less choppy, so just go with it. Chef accidentally knocks over kid's jacket at work, two bags of cocaine apparently fall out, chef tells my boss what happened, and she tells me. I say "Well HOW would he know that it was actually cocaine?" and she says "He tasted it." and I say "So he knows what cocaine tastes like? Is he a chef AND a cop???" She says "Ha ha, yeah that's the best part of the story".
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
At the store...
I am at the cash and there is a woman behind me.
No mistaking that it is a woman.
Cashier says to me: Thanks have a good day!
Cashier says to the woman behind me: Do you need a bag SIR?
I start walking away SLOWLY so I can hear if he says something along the lines of: "Oh sorry ma'am* that just came out wrong!"
Nope. Nothing.
And of course she doesn't correct him because HOW RIDICULOUSLY EMBARRASSING would it be to say "I am not a sir"?
I really hope she didn't go home and like freak out or something just because that idiot cashier decided to pretend we didn't hear him call her sir, and now she might think she looks like a dude.
*Ma'am is the WORST thing you can call a woman in my opinion.
I would rather be called a cunt.
Seriously.
But either way I would despise you.
Unless you were REALLY young and you called me ma'am, then I might let it go because you were trying to be respectful of my oldness.
No mistaking that it is a woman.
Cashier says to me: Thanks have a good day!
Cashier says to the woman behind me: Do you need a bag SIR?
I start walking away SLOWLY so I can hear if he says something along the lines of: "Oh sorry ma'am* that just came out wrong!"
Nope. Nothing.
And of course she doesn't correct him because HOW RIDICULOUSLY EMBARRASSING would it be to say "I am not a sir"?
I really hope she didn't go home and like freak out or something just because that idiot cashier decided to pretend we didn't hear him call her sir, and now she might think she looks like a dude.
*Ma'am is the WORST thing you can call a woman in my opinion.
I would rather be called a cunt.
Seriously.
But either way I would despise you.
Unless you were REALLY young and you called me ma'am, then I might let it go because you were trying to be respectful of my oldness.
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